#lyds talks

[smol-lydia]

Personal post//cw for mention for ed no explicit details because we don’t do that here

So I finally got an admit date for residential: July 18th. Because I’m getting authorized through Medicaid/my county, I already know how many days they’ve approved which is an odd reassurance because in the past when I’ve had private insurance they only approve 4-5 days at a time so your head was constantly on the chopping block and it made it hard to focus on getting better

This time, I know I’ll be getting 50 days, no more, no less. I haven’t needed a HLOC since my last relapse in 2019 when my step dad passed and I’ve been working on my recovery since my admission to Renfrew in 2017 so…it’s weird to be back in the place once again.

I’ve learned that if you’ve had your Ed for more than a decade it’s considered SEED (severe and enduring) and I’ve had mine since I was 7 years old so….23 years. And yet I’m so harsh on myself for not being 1000% better blah blah

I’ve stopped using eat and yeet behaviors since 2019 but I still struggle with anorexic behaviors obviously and just….I really want to get back on track with things because I had a solid recovery for a while and I miss it. I miss food freedom and feeling ok in my skin. And secure in myself.

I’m not the toxic asshole I was before renfrew who burned bridges in my friendships and slept with men for validation despite being a lesbian or started fist fights in Denny’s or did drugs etc etc I never want to go “out” from AA or NA and I want better for myself….and for my loved ones….

I may not be in a relationship anymore, may not be getting married any more…..

But I don’t want to die from this disease. It’s not what I want to be known for.

[smol-lydia]

Current time: 5:42 am 💀

Anything you’ve been doing lately: besides writing fic? I’ve been working on a Levihan/AOT ita bag

Anything I intend to do later?: probs gonna take it easy today; I started my cycle and the first few days are always rough so lotsa rest!!

Anything you recently watched or played: I’m rewatching AOT and am on the final season now, and am watching s13 of Bob’s Burgers

Anything else?: I’m working on fic updates but I’m worried they’re all hot garbage; that’s probably the hormones talking.

Tag 10 ppl (but no pressure have fun) : @signelchan @zaunitearchives @uniquedeerwitch @doritwo @perdrixforelle @zkyfall @dreamwreaver @mischievous-piltovan @faequeentitania

Tagged by the lovely @mouseberry! Thank you love for letting me overshare lol 💕

Current time: 2:46pm

Anything you’ve been doing lately: I’ve been getting into pins lately, but my collection is tiny and small. Baby collection of pins. The only kind of shopping I’m comfortable with is usually buying commissions, so I’ve been trying to do like… clothes shopping which blegh

Anything you intend to do later: Going to watch a musical with a friend, who fun fact is an ex girlfriend of sorts but shh (just kidding it’s not a secret. My partner is going to the beach today, and I like indoor activities lol)

Anything you recently watched or played: Season two of The Bear! I’m a giant baby though, so I can only take it one episode at a time like Bojack Horseman lol

Anything you’ve been meaning to watch or play: Why do I always forget every show ever- oh! I want to watch the new Dimension 20 show, Dungeons and Drag Queens 🥰

Anything else you'd like to say: Somebody teach me how to write tinimmy please the writers block is so real. Zekina I can do because I think “what would make my sister happy,” but I haven’t grown up with a tinimmy shipper so I’m floundering

Tagging: @drawthething @ironicsopsychotic @jimmyjrsmusoems @jimmypesto @marauder23 @racheldrawsdaily @sailoreuterpe @seriousblond @smol-lydia @theangrypomeranian

[itsaship-literally]

Interaction Time 👻

Sequel talk! : Should they get together?

I know the hype is real with how shippy the trailer spots have become. Progressively so, in fact.

Now, I am of the mind that I do not want my Babes to get together at the end. I am hoping for a truce, a common ground where neither have any attachments to anyone. This way us fanfic writers can go batshit.

One of the reasons I loved the original was all the potential. The reunion fics have always been my fav.

So, here, we have Mr Betel-Boy singing Richard Marx and chasing down Lyds… I fucking love it. I love the hopeless sap and desperation. One-sided BJ simping is a vibe; combine that with Lydia being able to put the slap down on his extra, and I'm a goner. I live for it, but the ending makes me nervous. If they get together, it closes things a little too well for me. I prefer my ships to have an almost relationship rather than a 100% definitive ending.

How do you guys feel? Do you want them to end up together or are you like me? Open-ended vagueness with potential.

[hingabee]

nobody else thought the matching shirts were a good idea

[beetlebabber]

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I may have yanked the pose on the bottom left from this fanart here bc it made me feel things

[lumiereandcogsworth]

i feel like all adam did during the curse was hate himself and take depression naps.

[phonydiaries]

he's so virgin mary coded

[thatfoolsophie]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Howl Series - Diana Wynne Jones Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sophie Hatter/Howl Pendragon, Lettie Hatter & Martha Hatter & Sophie Hatter, Calcifer & Howl Pendragon Characters: Sophie Hatter, Howl Pendragon, Calcifer (Howl Series) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Childhood Friends, Friends to Lovers, Bickering, character voice practice Summary:

“Sophie Hatter? Is that you?” Howl said disbelievingly.

The lump of the Witch’s curse melted in her throat like sugar. “The very same.”

“Ingary’s maddest Hatter! Dear Sophie, what have you done to yourself? You’ve been turned into a hag!”

“And you’ve turned into a dandy,” Sophie retorted, looking him up and down. She could not tell if he was dressed for day or night, only that his clothes were all silk and trailing edges and made to be looked at. His beautiful coat hung carelessly off his shoulders, the cut of his hair was feathery and artful, and his eyes were not as she remembered. Her heart twinged. It had been a long time.

[luvisia]

sometimes i tag things as rp dynamics between characters nobody else will ever understand and that's ok

[lydleaves]

my mother just commented on my weight loss saying i look "fit and sassy" WHAT DOES THAT MEAN??? 😭😭😭

[smol-lydia]

random personal shit but like, i've been out in the farm country, new york state for almost a month, right?

so 3k miles away from my home base AA/NA meetings that I used to go to every damn day, I've been hitting up zoom but the majority of my daily meetings were not virtual so w/e

and here i am, bbq sauce on my titties, logging onto my saturday am meeting for the first time since I got here (i couldn't be arsed with the zoom component/the time difference was fucking with me) and i see one of my friends, someone who got sober/clean after me (i got a year in may so i'm a bit over a year now) come up to share and it turns out he went "out" in my absence and had a brief relapse. got his ass back in the rooms but i just felt awful. awful that he went through that and awful that i've been away and so disconnected from everyone and everything.

i haven't been letting myself feel a lot here, been on crisis containment/survival mode mainly to get shit done, both for myself and for what i have to take care of here but shit, things just keep going the world keeps spinning when you're so far from everyone and everything.

and i'll be home for 36 hours then i'll be 50 days in a residential so like. =/

[always-and-anyways]

Feeling Unwell about how everyone went to save Laudna so fast. They really do be living with that trauma huh

[itsaship-literally]

Interaction time!!

Hey, Babes,

Comment or reblog (or even send anon asks).

What are your hopes for the new movie?

What impossible or potentially possible events do you want to see?

Any nods to other material or meta qualities? Pun-tastic visual gags. Goofy lines or even plot point gu-estimets.

Give is your theories, hopes, wishes and lets see how many of them transpire. Keep it positive and show us your excitement.

Just a side note : try to keep it at a PG13 level, I know some of you tooooooooooo well 😂 Dirty bugs.

[phonydiaries]

idk just for funsies :3

here’s weirder asks

who is/are your comfort character(s)?

lighter or matches?

do you leave the window open at night?

which cryptyd being do you believe in?

what color are your eyes?

why did you do that?

hair-ties or scrunchies?

how many water bottles are in your room right now?

which do you prefer, hot coffee or cold coffee?

would you slaughter the rich?

favorite extracurricular activity?

what kind of day is it?

when was the last time you ate?

do you love the smell of earth after it rains?

are you a parent? (all answers qualify)

can you drive?

are you farsighted or nearsighted?

what hair products do you use?

imagine we’re at a sleepover, would you paint my nails?

do you say soda or pop?

something you’ve kept since childhood?

what type of person are you?

how do you feel about chilly weather?

if we were together on a rooftop, what would we be doing?

perfume/body spray or lotion?

a scenario that you’ve replayed multiple times?

about how many hours of sleep did you get?

do you wear a mask?

how do you like your shower water?

is there dishes in your room?

what type of music keeps you grounded?

do you have a favorite towel?

the last adventure you’ve been on?

is there a song you know every word to by heart?

what’s your timezone?

how many times have you changed your url?

someone in your life, other than a relative, you’ve known for 10+ years?

a soap bar that smells good?

do you use lip balm?

did you have any snacks today?

how do you take your coffee?

an app you frequently use besides this godforsaken site?

what’s your take on spicy foods?

you get a free pass to kill anyone, who is it?

can you remember what happened yesterday?

favorite holiday film?

what was the last message you sent?

when did you first try an alcohol beverage?

can you skip rocks?

can i tag you in random stuff?

[lumiereandcogsworth]

hiii i’ve been doing a movie challenge since january where i watch a bunch of movies i’ve never seen before, and many are considered “iconic” (but some i just threw in for myself) and anyway tonight i just reached 50 movies from the challenge !! and i’ve been ranking them in order of my personal favorites, so i thought it could be fun if y’all sent me a number 1-50 and i could share the corresponding film :3

[phonydiaries]

can't explain why but holding out for a hero, specifically the shrek version, is such a P coded song to me. like that's what he's hearing in his little head while he's fighting for his actual life on the streets